I've survived my first full week of school, and I am about ready for bed (currently, at 9:21pm). I absolutely love my job. I can't imagine doing anything else. However, I leave at 7:00am and I'm home around 5:00pm. Ben and I play and nurse almost non-stop from the time I get home until bedtime, and Ben's bedtime is 9:00pm; mine is 10:00pm. So that leaves one hour a day for diaper laundry, regular laundry, picking up around the house, lesson plans, grading papers, emailing friends, and so on. That one hour a day goes by pretty quickly.
I had a moment this week where it all came to a head, and I asked Josh to buy us a package of disposable diapers. This would take one thing off my list of so many, and maybe make my life a tiny bit easier. I love so much about cloth diapering, and we'll still be part-time most likely, but it's just too much with being gone 50 hours a week.
It all comes down to priorities, and my family is most important. I'm trying to let things go more. Particularly housework. A friend commented that I seem to see in black and white. Either the house is clean or it isn't. Either everything is great or it's horrible. I know deep down there is mostly grey in the world, but I'm just having a hard time seeing it. It's just fine if the house is sort of clean, and everything isn't perfect. That mindset is really something I need to work on more.